Quote of the Day: Simple People

While cleaning an email, I came across one from a girl I met. She said:

"I think I'm a pretty simple straight forward kinda girl. But who knows. Maybe I seem simple to myself...because I know myself and can read my own mind."

Simple, but so true!!

Mojo is slowly returning...

Well, I feel a little better now. I guess I just made a little too much of a big deal about the frigin bricks. I also guess it was all the tension that built up inside.

But a little websurfing, or should I say craigslist surfing / seeking made me feel a little better. I replied to a couple craigslist posts in Toronto... i know, CL in the T.dot isn't as great as in cali - but it did the trick. I'm searching for a stand-alone punching bag. It's a pretty good workout - especially when you have something or someone you want to beat the shit out off - grrrrr. We had a punching bag at work in cali & did I put it to good use while at the gym.

Ahhh... I miss cali. Cali comes to mind because I cleaned out one of my multiple gmail accounts. It made me remember the goodtimes. My truck, my motorcycle, the people I met, the vegas trips I planned. The whole shabang. I cleaned out & deleted most of my old mail. But it was good - it brought back a semi-smile to my face - one which I haven't had for a few days.
As for Toronto - flow 93.5 sucks ASS!!! Shit I mean there are wicked strings of sick songs, remixed & all - but they are only heard like 10% of the time. The rest of the time it's either commericals or hip-pop (so they call now-a-days), like fuckin bow wow & shit. Fuck, where is the real hiphop, like fuckin rap! Or even good reggae or (lol never thought I'd say) reggaeton. My new station is Z103.5. Yes, it plays dance & alternative too - but hey cali opened the side of my brain that enjoys that. WAAAAAY better than that hippop shit that flow plays. Plus Z103.5 plays that san francisco song... "when you are goooooooing to saaan fraaan-ciscooooo, beeeee sure to weaar some flowers in your haaaaaair...." Sick song! In fact it is on the official PEY california compliation. As for the weather, I really dislike the humidity & the rain in toronto - fuck it rains like fuckin everyday!!

How the hell do I think I could live out here after I graduate! Shit, that's my reflection for today - I'm kinda bored now.

Shitty Two Days!

Yo guy, my mojo is gone! In the last two days - my mojo has been fuckin shit! I'm frustrated all the time, stressed & just plain fucking angry! I'm like at the tip of the iceberg & the smallest thing is going to set me off! WTF!

It started with a fight with an ex-friend, then I started getting annoyed cause my dad does shit all rushed & unorganized. My frustration has to do with me being a perfectionist & all. I'm usually like "if it's not done right, don't do it" - instead figure out how to do it right.

Every problem has many solutions - but if you rush into it & force the completion you are probably gonna fuck shit up! grrrr - now some of the bricks are slightly crooked & we don't have enough glue for one of the major slabs! We would have had some if it wasn't used for another (non-urgent, extra) project beforehand! Shit man.

Lesson for anyone / everyone. Plan shit out before you do it! Don't rush into things / wing it - cause you'll fuck shit up. And if shit fucks up, chances are it'll be permanent! (grrr.. now that the bricks are glued there is no way I can straighten them out - our interlocks look like ass man). Will take pictures & post later.

Negativity!

lol. Yo sars wasn't it a year today that you vowed to block negativity from your life? Today on your Negativity Free World aniversary I too shall join the club.

Smiles around the house :D

(p.s. yo... ppl downtown don't smile enough!)

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Nah, fuck this post - I'm just angry - but I ain't gonna bring my level down to that of some people. (actual post saved as a draft for personal reflection in the future).

"Check-In"

lol. The title has so many "inbetween-the-line" meanings for today.

But the title is straight out of an email from my old boss. He said they kinda missed me when things got tough. :D Thanks. That makes me feel good. But I love to debug - debugging & analyzing are my most favouriteist things in the whole world.

Check-in or no one to check in?? Cashflow dilemma.

And my ex-girlfriend checked in today. ha ha - she's prob gonna read this too. Whatever. We had an up-down conversation. We started off on a down, left off on an up. But (afterward &) over the day it averaged out to "even" - double meaning :P

I snapped at my dad slightly today. No worries, I apologized afterward. I realize that I'm much more aggressive then him. You know my dad is a really "nice" guy. I realized today... that my nice half comes from him (& my mom ofcourse). My rough/tough side comes from my friends & life experience. My sensitive side (which I think is my weak side) comes from being an only child.

As such.... lol. nope, no conclusion ("as such" just seemed like the next logical statement). Anyways, as such I realized that I often hide things because I don't want my parents to see my rough/tough agressive side. Even see that sometimes I'm not that great a person... in fact, if you piss me off I can be down right "evil" in so many ways. Shit I feel sorry for the things I did to some people in the past (ppl who crossed the wrong path mind you... but still. Oh well, you live & you learn. (hey "as such" acutally worked out in the paragraph).

Well, that's GajCo Inc. checking in for the day.

Yo now that's some Magiver Shit!

lol. I just pulled a magiver! I went to a family party - it's all good on a friday night, got to see some family & friends & chill out. Then I passed by the Fox (& fiddle) - owned by part of the family. And all of a sudden I get a voicemail - huh? First voicemail since I got back - especailly since I'm technically on "vacation disconnect" ($10/month service plan - lol).

My mom is like "we don't have the house key!!! Do you??". I'm like - yo, no guy!. Okay, I rush home to find my folks sleeping in the car. Then I search the car - back track their trail. Either way.... No key! After calling several "24 hour locksmiths" & receiving no anwser!! grrrr. I decide to pull a magiver!

I bust out the 12 ft ladder & scale my house (if anyone knows my house, I have a wrap around 2nd floor balcony). And low & behold - the balcony door is open. But scaling the walk, type-walking the balcony & hoping the fence was pure magiver shit yo.

Anyways, I'm out - semi-drunk. But chillin. Shit I got a dentist appointment at noon tomorrow.

Pimp Shit!

My "Banker" Gear (red version)

I am Completely Satisfied!

I know, I know my last few posts have gotten a little personal - lol. So you are probably thinking I'm going to write about being completely satisfied with myself - lol.

Nope, no luck. I'm completely satisfied with the eggs I just cooked!! Those were some sick eggs. I cooked them for the first time over-easy (just like Shelly likes them). And I added some minced-moose meat, chumbal (spicy coconut grates), and 85% of a whole wheat bagel (no butter). I know it's late - but the meal wasn't overly heavy & it was composed mainly of protein :D

Getting back on track for the healthy, fit GajCo! Sick. But if anyone wants to know... I am completely satisfied with myself as well (angel)!

Thesis Prof Semi-Confirmed

Yes, I have confirmed the nano prof of my choice! No exact topic yet - but he plans to pass me off to one of his scientists! Sick - he even said I could enroll in his course. Now I just got to do paperwork & get engsci to approve all my subjects (past & present).

I'm in LOVE.... for real though!

Holy shit! What an eventful day!! So much to say – so much to talk about – but, lol – it’s not like anyone is up at 3 am on a Sunday!! So I guess I’ll just spite my thought to my good old blog.

Lol. I just got home from Nick’s wedding – drunk as hell… I know, I know my prof is coming back tomorrow & I need to meet him at his office – but the night was just too good to pass up! (plus I think I feel in love – lol).

Yeah, I’m drunk & yes (boo gaj) I had a few cigarettes at the end of the night (I blame it on my new love!). But yo… I got passed metro toronto’s Ride Check! Ha ha.

Fuck do I really want to type at this point at night? Aw well, let’s just spite about the girl & see if I’m up for philosophizing later on….

Yo this girl was fuckin smoking!! From the minute she walked in – I was like what?!!!! The whole night she was on my mind. But are we all ready for the bad news… she came with a mutual friend of mine. I mean I just met the dude & she was his date – and they were kinda on the fence (lol – I know how that shit is). But guy, something about her was smoking!! I can’t move in on that can I???

I remember when me & my ex were on the fence. I mean, she was definitely out in the field & met other guy (no offence, if she happens to come across this post – hey, I’m drunk & these are my thoughts!). So could this be a possibility for me?? Nah man, I wouldn’t feel right! Shit, girls come & go – I ain’t gonna get into drama cause of this chick. But damn son she was smoking! And the thing that tripped me out was that she was totally made up. Like coloured contacts, blondish highlights & the whole speel. I’m not usually into that shit. But she seemed intelligent too!

Whatever guy, I just got to treat her like eye candy – cause I couldn’t really move in on that. Or could I? No – gaj, you idiot! Remember how pissed you were at competition? How insecure that made you feel? Fuck it I can’t do that to a next guy. But fuck – she was fly!

The other thing I noticed all night was people bigging me up for school & shit!! Fuck, ppl talking about me being smart & shit!! Lol. Guy, I’m far from smart yo. I’m just an average dude that gets a break every now & then. I never really quit – so that’s kinda smart – but I’m no way the way people think I am!! I guess it’s a different perspective though. You know, most of my boys never went to university. But shit – despite that, they are still my BLOOD! I’d do almost anything for anyone of them (in real life situations). But guy, I didn’t like them bigging me up for school & shit.

Fuck man – another friend married! My heart stopped today! When nick walked into the temple, dressed like the groom. Gaj’s train of thought “hey, it’s the groom…” looking up, “hey, it’s nick”…. Heart stopping “shit, nick is the groom!!”. Fuck, what a trip out! Man, shane is next… that means half of the entire Shaydz of Brown crew is married, set, or with kids! Not even half, there are like 3 ppl left (including me! Ha ha).

Fuck man, I’m so ready to meet the girl of my dreams now! It’s been 24 years & love still hasn’t struck me!! I’m getting anxious! Now, I’ve had my fair share of relationships – or have I? Either way, I’m semi ready for something long term. Shit, I’d totally get serious with that hottie from tonight – but fuck, I can’t do it – its off limits! Grrrr.

I think personally, I’m leaning toward Dr. Hyde (& not Mr. Jeykle). My goal over the next year, is 1.) do well in school 2.) discover my inner goodness.

The fortune teller I saw last week said something. Whether he is a quack or not – it was true. “I treat people like they treat me”. Very true!! If you are a dick to me – I’m a hardcore dick to you! If you are good to me – I am extremely good to you. In my life, half the people I know I would do anything for – those people are good to me. The other half, I personally don’t give a shit about – and so be it, cause they did shit to me! I guess, it’s because I’m a firm believer of the GOLDEN RULE: Do onto others as they would do on to you!!

However, I learnt in my later years (not necessarily the last year) – that statement is incomplete. EXTENDED GOLDEN RULE: Do onto others as they would do on to you! But do not expect others to do onto you as you would do onto them. (I follow the next amendment – but don’t necessarily know if it’s right or wrong – up for discussion) And if they don’t do onto you as you would to them – do on to them as they have done onto you!

That’s it for now. I need to force myself to sleep, so I can see my prof tomorrow. Fuck, I’m gonna be thinking about that girl all night! Shit – she was fuckin beautiful!

p.s. I'll upload a pic of my pimped out suit/wear.

You've Got to Love Bachelor Parties!

Shit, this has been (technically) my 3rd bachelor party among my friends. Shit & it kicked ass!! But the one thing I'll remember all night.... was the fuckin pizza! I have no idea what the topping were, but they were fuckin amazing!! lol.

I even wore my las vegas stripper shirt and walked through my house at like 6 in the mornin'! lol. Yo man, I'm not getting married for a while! ha ha - shit, I have yet to even meet someone to fall heads over heels for... I'm kinda curious to know, if that'll even happen for me? But it's all good.

FUCK!!! 132 lbs!

Shit! I gained fuckin 7 lbs! What the hell - is it me or is Canada just trying to piss me off!!

Maybe it was the cali weather that helped melt the excess weight off me! Shit, now I've lost a net 8lbs from my average weight! Grrrrr.

Shit! I need better food intake & convenient gym facilities! Damn, that's an excuse - I need to make a stronger effort to hit the gym downtown.

A Paradigm Shift...

Never thought I would actually use a word I learnt in a philosophy course. Well things change. I know, I know this next post is going to get a little personal - a little sloppy - but what the fuck!?! If you can't express your emotions then who are you?

So GajCo being all stressed out about shit, decided to take a midnight stroll through the neighbourhood (which is cool considering the white picket fences everywhere - thank god I don't live in Malvern anymore! It's surprising at the gun violence out here - I'm sure it was a lot worse in Cali... but they just don't advertise it the way they do here!).

Anyways, I came to a realization... As a kid I used to say, "There are 3 pleasures in Life... Food, Alcohol, & Sex". I was usually quoted as saying "in that specific order as well ;)" I used to think that the meaning of life was to enjoy yourself - to have fun... earn money to enjoy. Enjoy via... yeap, you got it: Food, Alcohol, Sex.

But I realized something tonight... during my stroll. These 3 things don't promote your life - instead they poison it! Come to think of it - I've been poisoning myself for close to the last 10 years!

Food: Yes, it's great. I love it. It tastes sooooo good. It satisfies you - a large meal, followed by mouth watering dessert! If anyone enjoys food it is me. No wonder I've been over weight for so long - in fact, I've recently started bingeing again! But really - what does food cost? It's poison to your arteries, poison to your body - poison to your colon! And someone like me - who is at risk for cancer (especially colon cancer - in the genes), I'm one for lusting over food! (for that matter I'm an idiot for smoking - even if it was for a very short period!).

Alcohol: Yeah, I'm quite the hoot when I'm drunk. Usually a good drunk - until of course someone tips the tea pot a little (but that's a different story). I've loved alcohol from the first day I drank (at the tender age of ~16). I had a fake id then & have probably drank more up until now, than most tame adults at the age of 35. Shit - that definitely can't be good for my body! I've poisoned my liver & again probably my colon & digestive system. I'm such a good drunk, I can tell when I've had alcohol poisoning & at that point can force myself to throw-up (when you throw-up it is your body reacting to alcohol poisoning - I catch it before my body decides to do it on it's own). That can't be good. I've lusted on alcohol quite a bit in my past.

Sex: This is a touchy subject. Not that I am condemming sex. But Lust for sex. It poisons the mind. It leads to cheating, betrayal, lust instead of or over love. All the good stuff that soap opera's are made of. And the drama & pain that comes / goes along with it. lol. Some might know that I've had my fair share of "drama". But in the end Lust for Sex - poisons the mind (that's all I'm getting into seeing that this is a public blog!).

So in the end - I've realized that Food, Alcohol, & Sex really just poison your arteries, liver, and mind. Then I started wondering.... what is the meaning of life (considering I had scraped my old paradigm). Then it hit me!

Enlightenment! Knowledge, Understanding. Us humans are evolved species (which might also be up for debate or discussion). But as an engineer, or more so as a scientist (or more so an engineer?? whatever...). More so as humans, we are constantly trying to improve ourselves. Making life simpler - getting a snow blower instead of shoveling, a fuel efficent car over walking. Life is all about learning, knowledge and enlightenment! The purpose of life is to learn about everything around us. Be it learn about our neighbours, how our family works, how our friends work, how our cars work, how the stock market works, how taxes work. It is all really a learning process - that is life! And the meaning of life is to gain enlightenment from the knowledge we acquire! And that is life!

Shit! I'm going to break down!

Fuck man! Here I am Monday night (or is it tuesday) drinking at home on my own! Shit man, this fucking sucks! It looks like GajCo Inc is headed in a nose-first sprial!

Fuck man! I should have been more on the ball! I mean I usually am! I'm the dude that was completely on top of shit last year. In cali it was every man for himself & I always came out on top! Now I'm back to Toronto & it feels like fucking shit!! The weather sucks! My muscles are getting wimpy, my knee injury is acting up. What the FUCK!!! Toronto feels like ASS!

Okay, besides that - there are other reasons my mood is shit!

1.) I realized that my ideal thesis prof is in high demand & I never formally confirmed anything with him.

2.) I didn't realize my course calendar was out of date & hence my courses for this year were totally fucked!!

3.) I realize that I have a "technical elective" - where the fuck did that come from??? And to make it worse - the sickest course alive only has limited enrollment. To make that worse, guess who the prof is?? Yeap, my high-in-demand prof. The one who is away till next week. The one who I will probably end up begging & pleading to sign with...

4.) Shit, I still got to hustle that course approval for the PDE & the humanities courses I did at San Jose State. hooooo SJSU! (fuck I should have got a SJSU hoodie).

5.) Fuck I'm totally stressing! I need something to occupy my time! But shit, I have so much to do! Fuck, fuck, fuck!

Shit man, I'm so stressing! I just want this year to be done! It so short... yet it seems so far away!

Fuck man, I'm going to break down!

The Life Lessons We Learn...

Over the past few days, I've learnt so much. So much about myself, my family, my friends & even other people around me. It's time to buckle down for myself - get ready for school & stuff, but it was definitely a time of recall & understanding.

For one thing.... I've learn I've become a more mellow dude. Those who know me now would laugh - but the fact is, I used to be pretty rough around the edge, losing my temper on a drop of a dime, confronting everyone, not listening to anyone. It seems that cali has changed that. I guess I was so used to having people I knew around me - I mean I really only had a few clicks, one of which were the guys in high school & the ones outside of high school. But either way they all knew me, almost inside out. I guess once I went to cali.... fuck, why go into a detailed thought process about shit!?! Bascially, I matured over this one year. I've learnt a lot about myself today. I see the contrast of me now with the entire shaydz crew & me in the past with the crew. lol. How things change with time.

As for smoking... I realized it's harder to stop when you are at the club. But no problem for the good old gaj. Got drunk, slight temptation arose - then I realized how disguising it was & stopped. hoooooo for gaj!.

Funny thing, I also by chance (lol. brown folks) ran into a fortune / palm reader today. He gave me & my folks a read... and boy was it interesting. I don't know if I believe that shit. I more along believe that those fortunes are meant to be told to us. That is, fate is written - if a fortune is read to me, it doesn't necessarily mean that it's true... just that I have to believe it is true (or not). So for example if my fortune says I'm gonna get hit by a car, I'll believe it & not get hit by a car. Whatever.

But somethings (in fact a lot of things he said that were interesting - especially about my future wife & all my relationships - lol, but I'll keep that classified for now). The dude knew I lived in 3 countries... he never said which ones, but my parents thought he was wrong because I only lived in Sri Lanka & Canada - but later realized that I also lived in Cali! Anyways, dude says that I'm gonna settle in Canada!! grrrrr - after living in cali for a year & loving it... you are telling me I'm not going to move back!!! Fuck that, it's my choice! I'll do it if I want!! grrrr. And the other thing was that I'll never succeed in business. It's possible -- but that doesn't mean I'm not going to try!! Fuck it, I'm gonna give it an extra shot & see what happens.

Because if it is one thing cali helped me realize... business is were the $$$ is at & the other key factor - compared to the world at large... I know how to hustle, for good or bad - I can put deals together & am quite the smooth talker. So we'll see what happens.

lol - the sun is coming up... for some reason, if feels like I just walked down Las Vegas Blvd after a night of clubbing & gambling! lol. night

I'm in LOVE!!

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never thought this day would come...

but ELISE NEAL, I LOVE YOU!!

Drunk...

So I just got back from Mink Lounge... I know wed. night, but it was a fundrasier for a friend. I'm a fuckin idiot!! I get drunk, and I start smoking a few cigarettes!! grrrr - what the fuck!! I totally disagree with smoking - yet i find myself smoking!! What the hell! I know, it's wrong & bad - so why the fuck do I do it!! Grrr! I always preach not to smoke now i'm fuckin doing it! WTF!!!!

Other than that I had a fuckin blast! Meet up with a few good friends, some old, some dear, some not so dear - lol. Also heard some interesting things, gossip if you may - but i'll keep that confidential! Anywhow, i'm fuckin drunk. And will write about other shit later. Peace. Fuck I hate that i fuckin smoked today!! grrrr. WTF man!

Metropia

What canadian television has come to! Okay first Train 48. Now this show Metropia. I mean good job to Omni 1 or 2 or whatever... but seriously these shows are kinda retarded!

Metropia is like a late night soap opera, except that instead of passion, every other sentence involves a reference to kinky sex!?! What's the deal with that? If the plot is not a love triangle - it's about a gay relationship!! And don't forget to throw in the inter-racial relationship in there (featuring none other than Toronto's own Mastro).

Thesis Dilemma

Damn... So Gaj got himself into a little bit of a predicament. Fourth Year starts in 25 days & I still haven't confirmed my thesis or even decided on a topic!! Talk about screwed!

I have the ideal prof I'd want to do my thesis under. In fact, I contacted him back in February asking to discuss possible thesis topics & to inform him of my "strong" interest. We corresponded a few times but that fell through because of the time difference, work & his availability. Shit I shouldn't blame it on that... It was my fault for not working harder to follow up. I kept postponing it. Now here I am back in toronto - yet that Prof is on vacation till 14 days before classes start. Damn, my dad always used to say - "don't wait until things are convenient for you, because at that time things might not be convenient for the rest of the world." Shit - so true!

Now what do I do. I have no idea if this prof has accepted other students, or would even still accept me. There are other profs I guess, other options I guess - but my heart is kind of set on this avenue. And I'm sure other profs are not going to appreciate me approaching them in the last few weeks of summer.

So what do I do? Do I approach the "senior scientists" of this profs lab & ask them about their research in hopes of gaining a topic. That has several problems cause from fingering them (okay, don't get dirty now - it's a UNIX application to check the status of a user, i.e. when they last logged in, received email, checked email, etc), it seems that the "senior scientists" check their mail daily - but the grad students (the two I could find) haven't check their email since October?? Is that even right? - well, that's what finger says.

But what? Ask the scientists about thesis topics... then find out the prof can't accept me? I am afraid of being rejected by this prof - and that's clouding my judgment on how to proceed. I'm afraid of getting on his bad side, or irritating his scientists or even worse him. At the same time, I'm afraid to approach other profs because it is so late - but if I wait for an answer from my prof (& it is negative) I would be forced to approach other profs even later!!! But what if I approach other profs & get accepted - then accepted by my original prof??

Grrrr.. This is kinda frustrating? I haven't even been formally accepted by any prof - yet I'm planning ahead. Shit, I've been reading a book & it keeps talking about channeling & controlling your emotions. What does it say, "Be truthful about your emotions and use your mind and emotions in your favor, not against yourself." And "it's fear that is all too often doing the thinking."

So what do I do? Wait for my prof? Approach other profs? Ask other profs to be my backup (lol - I'm sure they'll love that)? Approach my prof's scientists independently & ask them to learn more about their research - in hopes of getting more guidance on a topic (if my prof does accept me & he might also like my initiative)? Damn, confused & yet so scared & afraid. Shit thesis is supposed to be like my highlight of my academic career & right now I haven't set shit up and am overflowing with fear!

I'm not afraid of failing. I know that no matter what is thrown at me, I'm gonna make it work. But I'm just afraid & unsure of the next step I should take?

Any suggestions?

Break Ups - To Make Ups

An interesting conversation I had (or advice I gave a friend)... The MSN conversation went something like this:

says:
hey how did you get over your last girlfriend
says:
not belinda
says:
the one that messed you up for a year
GajCo Inc. says:
the best thing to do...
GajCo Inc. says:
is AIM to better IMPROVE YOURSELF!!
GajCo Inc. says:
set goals for something you've always wanted to do... & do it
says:
what the hell does that mean
GajCo Inc. says:
lol
GajCo Inc. says:
it's very symbolic... but here's how it work
GajCo Inc. says:
works
GajCo Inc. says:
figure out something that will make you better & focus all your energy on that one thing
GajCo Inc. says:
for example... if you've always wanted to get into better shape..... focus on working out & looking better
says:
like your tai chi thing?
GajCo Inc. says:
lol, kinda - but tai chi was just so i could speed it up
says:
HAHAHAHA
GajCo Inc. says:
for my ex-girl... at first i focused on school... put all my energy into that
GajCo Inc. says:
then after it was getting in better shape... so i put a lot of energy into working out
GajCo Inc. says:
you use them as motivation....
GajCo Inc. says:
kinda like i'm doing this so after she'll be like... damn, he looks good.... or damn, he's doing well... or damn, he turned gay
GajCo Inc. says:
(the last one was catered for you)
says:
SWEET
GajCo Inc. says:
use them as motivation to do better for yourself
says:
MEN IT IS
GajCo Inc. says:
lol
says:
yeah but you have to get over them first
says:
what if i still want to get back together still
says:
how do you stop that
GajCo Inc. says:
see that's the key to improving yourself... if you preoccupy yourself with your improvement... it doesn't involve them in anyway....
GajCo Inc. says:
so after you are done improving.... you can see where you stand then
GajCo Inc. says:
whether you still want them... or if they still want you... or if you've found something better
GajCo Inc. says:
but in order to get over them.... you must decide to forget about them & focus all your energy on your own personal benefit
says:
yeah
GajCo Inc. says:
then decide after you've started reaching your goals, what you want to do
says:
that is the tough part
GajCo Inc. says:
it's true... but that also the point where you have the strongest motivation
GajCo Inc. says:
you have to try to use all feels of them & channel that into your motivation
GajCo Inc. says:
ie. if i start thinking about her.... i'll be like "stupid girl.... grrr... fuck it, I'm going to the gym"
GajCo Inc. says:
or "fuck it, i'm gonna rock this exam / test "




Because you see... if you are upset & trying to get over someone (be it guy or girl), you need to focus all those feelings into something positive. Use spite as motivation... and sure enough, as time goes by you'll start feeling better about yourself and stop hating / regretting / being hungup on that person. Using spite & hate or hurt, is a good motivator... but in time you will heal yourself and the hurt and/or hate will disappear & you will be cured. You might even understand why that person did what they did, or what you did wrong or whatever insight you learn from life.

Well, that's the GajCo sponsored advice for the week.