I'm in LOVE.... for real though!

Holy shit! What an eventful day!! So much to say – so much to talk about – but, lol – it’s not like anyone is up at 3 am on a Sunday!! So I guess I’ll just spite my thought to my good old blog.

Lol. I just got home from Nick’s wedding – drunk as hell… I know, I know my prof is coming back tomorrow & I need to meet him at his office – but the night was just too good to pass up! (plus I think I feel in love – lol).

Yeah, I’m drunk & yes (boo gaj) I had a few cigarettes at the end of the night (I blame it on my new love!). But yo… I got passed metro toronto’s Ride Check! Ha ha.

Fuck do I really want to type at this point at night? Aw well, let’s just spite about the girl & see if I’m up for philosophizing later on….

Yo this girl was fuckin smoking!! From the minute she walked in – I was like what?!!!! The whole night she was on my mind. But are we all ready for the bad news… she came with a mutual friend of mine. I mean I just met the dude & she was his date – and they were kinda on the fence (lol – I know how that shit is). But guy, something about her was smoking!! I can’t move in on that can I???

I remember when me & my ex were on the fence. I mean, she was definitely out in the field & met other guy (no offence, if she happens to come across this post – hey, I’m drunk & these are my thoughts!). So could this be a possibility for me?? Nah man, I wouldn’t feel right! Shit, girls come & go – I ain’t gonna get into drama cause of this chick. But damn son she was smoking! And the thing that tripped me out was that she was totally made up. Like coloured contacts, blondish highlights & the whole speel. I’m not usually into that shit. But she seemed intelligent too!

Whatever guy, I just got to treat her like eye candy – cause I couldn’t really move in on that. Or could I? No – gaj, you idiot! Remember how pissed you were at competition? How insecure that made you feel? Fuck it I can’t do that to a next guy. But fuck – she was fly!

The other thing I noticed all night was people bigging me up for school & shit!! Fuck, ppl talking about me being smart & shit!! Lol. Guy, I’m far from smart yo. I’m just an average dude that gets a break every now & then. I never really quit – so that’s kinda smart – but I’m no way the way people think I am!! I guess it’s a different perspective though. You know, most of my boys never went to university. But shit – despite that, they are still my BLOOD! I’d do almost anything for anyone of them (in real life situations). But guy, I didn’t like them bigging me up for school & shit.

Fuck man – another friend married! My heart stopped today! When nick walked into the temple, dressed like the groom. Gaj’s train of thought “hey, it’s the groom…” looking up, “hey, it’s nick”…. Heart stopping “shit, nick is the groom!!”. Fuck, what a trip out! Man, shane is next… that means half of the entire Shaydz of Brown crew is married, set, or with kids! Not even half, there are like 3 ppl left (including me! Ha ha).

Fuck man, I’m so ready to meet the girl of my dreams now! It’s been 24 years & love still hasn’t struck me!! I’m getting anxious! Now, I’ve had my fair share of relationships – or have I? Either way, I’m semi ready for something long term. Shit, I’d totally get serious with that hottie from tonight – but fuck, I can’t do it – its off limits! Grrrr.

I think personally, I’m leaning toward Dr. Hyde (& not Mr. Jeykle). My goal over the next year, is 1.) do well in school 2.) discover my inner goodness.

The fortune teller I saw last week said something. Whether he is a quack or not – it was true. “I treat people like they treat me”. Very true!! If you are a dick to me – I’m a hardcore dick to you! If you are good to me – I am extremely good to you. In my life, half the people I know I would do anything for – those people are good to me. The other half, I personally don’t give a shit about – and so be it, cause they did shit to me! I guess, it’s because I’m a firm believer of the GOLDEN RULE: Do onto others as they would do on to you!!

However, I learnt in my later years (not necessarily the last year) – that statement is incomplete. EXTENDED GOLDEN RULE: Do onto others as they would do on to you! But do not expect others to do onto you as you would do onto them. (I follow the next amendment – but don’t necessarily know if it’s right or wrong – up for discussion) And if they don’t do onto you as you would to them – do on to them as they have done onto you!

That’s it for now. I need to force myself to sleep, so I can see my prof tomorrow. Fuck, I’m gonna be thinking about that girl all night! Shit – she was fuckin beautiful!

p.s. I'll upload a pic of my pimped out suit/wear.