Shit! I'm going to break down!

Fuck man! Here I am Monday night (or is it tuesday) drinking at home on my own! Shit man, this fucking sucks! It looks like GajCo Inc is headed in a nose-first sprial!

Fuck man! I should have been more on the ball! I mean I usually am! I'm the dude that was completely on top of shit last year. In cali it was every man for himself & I always came out on top! Now I'm back to Toronto & it feels like fucking shit!! The weather sucks! My muscles are getting wimpy, my knee injury is acting up. What the FUCK!!! Toronto feels like ASS!

Okay, besides that - there are other reasons my mood is shit!

1.) I realized that my ideal thesis prof is in high demand & I never formally confirmed anything with him.

2.) I didn't realize my course calendar was out of date & hence my courses for this year were totally fucked!!

3.) I realize that I have a "technical elective" - where the fuck did that come from??? And to make it worse - the sickest course alive only has limited enrollment. To make that worse, guess who the prof is?? Yeap, my high-in-demand prof. The one who is away till next week. The one who I will probably end up begging & pleading to sign with...

4.) Shit, I still got to hustle that course approval for the PDE & the humanities courses I did at San Jose State. hooooo SJSU! (fuck I should have got a SJSU hoodie).

5.) Fuck I'm totally stressing! I need something to occupy my time! But shit, I have so much to do! Fuck, fuck, fuck!

Shit man, I'm so stressing! I just want this year to be done! It so short... yet it seems so far away!

Fuck man, I'm going to break down!