Contemplating Hustling Along the PCH.

So another weekend wasted. Took a nap saturday, followed by a few beers in Frisco - followed by a lazy Sunday. After a hardy meal at good old Denny's - the weather started looking better (sun came out & shit).

So we took a drive from Half Moon Bay to Santa Cruz, along Hwy 1 (PCH). The ocean & cliffs were sick! Even stopped off at one of the many costal state beaches... took a little stroll on the sand. The waves were sick! The cliffs were sick, as were the mountains & the caves on the beach (remember that Cave in Baywatch?? There was one pretty similar to that).

Then driving back, I started the thinking... about life & $$$ and hustling. As long as I can remember, I've always been hustling. Trying to find the easy way out - the fast way - quick money - shortcuts - back door holes.

Then I started wondering is it all worth it? I mean, often times I win... but then often times I lose. So do I just break even in the end? Is it worth all the risks? Okay, it's a well known fact that I'm a risk taker. No Guts No Glory right?

But in the end do I profit? Greed is definitely a pitfall for a lot of people - even me. Last year, I had an offer for my bike of $3200 - if I sold it then I would have had $500 extra. Remember that f*cker shawabe from Malven I was hustling with him & he ended up falling off the face of the earth & ripped me $500 worth of profits. I'm fighting this traffic ticket - but paying $14 a month of legal services.

So in the end do I break even? Belinda used to say that I only look at the bad - it's true. I'm not an optimist - but I think I'm more of a realist. But it's true because I can never shake the bad from my head & am so easily dismiss the good.

I don't know... this is just a random rambling on my part. But one thing is for sure, I won't know how to live by the book - it's just a mentally that I've learnt over the years. Then again I used to think the same about my temper issues - that it couldn't be fixed. Well, this is getting a little personal so I think I shall stop here...